the writing and photography of Neil Kramer

Color

My life was forever changed when I met you.  The color of my world changed from black to white, and all was good, until the intensity of the bright white glare became like an inquisitor’s lamp at Guantanamo Bay and I felt naked and trapped and filled with anger, and the white became as empty as the black, and I yearned again for the muted colors of gentleness, like the red and blue and greens that I once dreamed about in my childhood bed.

23 Comments

  1. Finn

    This nearly made me cry. xo

  2. Twenty Four At Heart

    Beautifully written. Hugs to you!

  3. SciFi Dad

    Woah. I thought you had been scraped and switched to partial feeds like everyone else has been this week.

  4. churchpunkmom

    *sigh*
    Beautiful, Neil. 🙂

  5. Beth

    Wow…..

  6. AnnieH(the other annie)

    “…You could make it your mission
    to shut it out forever,
    to crouch in the dark,
    the blinds pulled tight–

    still, in the morning,
    a gleaming little ray will betray you, poking
    its optimistic finger
    through a corner of the blind,…”

    from a Poem About Light by Kathleen Sheeder Bonanno

    http://tidingsofmagpies.blogspot.com/2009/05/poem-about-light.html

  7. Miss Grace

    Lovely.

  8. melanie

    exposure.

  9. Sarcastic Mom

    So, yeah, I’ll admit that I teared up. Sometimes it doesn’t take many words to move a person – just the right ones. You picked them well this time.

  10. gorillabuns

    I can totally relate to this post. Beautiful.

  11. claire

    I really like this piece, the writing, Neil.

  12. maggie, dammit

    Jesus, Neil.

  13. better safe than sorry

    things not going well huh?

  14. Karen (miscmum)

    Lovely.

    (ps. I do believe this is the first time I’ve ever commented here. I’ve de-virginised myself)

  15. Danny

    I am envious of your gift of brevity and the ability to use words in ways in which we’re left to interpret their meaning. Now that is writing!

  16. anymommy

    Love the writing, but not that you’re feeling this way.

  17. sassy

    This is really beautiful, and pulling, Neil. WOW.

  18. Kat

    Beautiful, and sad.

  19. Kirsten/Mama Ginger Tree

    Wow. So well written Neil.

  20. Karen MEG

    Wow, Neil, just WOW…

  21. Headless Mom

    Nice. Very nice.

  22. headbang8

    I think you’re making real progress, in your head and heart.

    If you dreamed of muted colours in your childhood bed, why has your life been so black and white? Has it always been black and white, from your very earliest days? What was B&W about the world which confronted you as emerged from your childhood bed every morning?

  23. JennyMac

    Wow…that is incredible.

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