I don’t know if it is stress, loneliness, the upcoming Holiday season, or economic fears about the future, but I thought about religion today.Â Perhaps, it is the book I am reading, “The Jew and the Lotus,” or the pizza slice I had for lunch.Â Although I’m a rational person, in another place, under different circumstances, I could see myself as a person involved in spirituality and mysticism, which to me, is the logical extension of creative writing.Â After all, f irst a man talks to his Penis in silly sex stories, and soon, he is inevitably conversing with God.
I like to read YOUR posts where YOU write about your religion, no matter what your faith.Â Even if I don’t believe in Jesus Christ or the holiness of Buddha, these are all human attempts to understand the world, which is… well, human.Â I know it is cool to make fun of religious people, and they sometimes deserve it, but I respect those who think about the deep questions, such as “Why do shitty things happen to good people?” and “Will praying increase my traffic on my blog?” I regret that I don’t have more spirituality in my life.Â The “community” of Twitter is fun, but it doesn’t truly connect me to the ethical and spiritual thinkers of the past and present.
When I hear a religious person talk, my mind’s first instinct is to say “bullshit,” but my heart believes that there is an energy out “there.”Â Â Even when I encounter one of you online, available on IM, I can feel YOUR energy.Â What is this energy?Â Is it in my brain?Â Why do I have a special connection to certain people?Â Is it random or for a purpose?Â Is there a universal energy — a God?Â And what does this mean in reference to ethics or day to day life?Â Â As for my own religion — how should a Jew act?Â What does being Jewish mean?Â Do I have to believe everything in the Torah?Â Do I HAVE to eat gefilte fish?
I’m not going to bored you today with the crap that sometimes fills my mind when I’m not blogging or watching Judge Judy.Â Â Â And don’t worry about me suddenly changing my blog title to “Scientologist of the Month.”Â I don’t get involved in any religion which doesn’t joke about itself.Â But I do think my “rational self” suppresses my more spiritual and mystical side, the one born a Pisces, the Neilochka who isn’t so straight-arrow logical, who might EVEN believe in the supernatural power of words.
OK, enough. Â Back to the empirical world tomorrow.