Christine, I believe you have many of the characteristics of an empath. You can feel the joy and sorrow of those around you. This can be a dangerous trait, because the constant energy of life, the rollercoaster of emotions, can make anyone want to hide from the world.
But you don’t run from life. You run towards it, embarking on the greatest adventure known to man (and woman) — marriage.
I can offer no advice other than learn to compromise and don’t lose your own identity.
I believe that the love you and Clay have for each other can transform the dry Arizona desert into a garden filled with red, green, and yellow tropical flowers.